I discovered this book when Nadia Bolz-Weber (author of
Pastrix) recommended it on her Facebook page. It's a collection of essays by female Christian leaders under the age of 40 (it's part of a series by young female spiritual leaders). The title immediately caught my attention. These women, many pastors and teachers, share their thoughts on a variety of topics that have been off limits in Christianity.
Some of the essays by more conservative women wrestle with the teachings of men as the head of the household, women speaking in church or preaching, women as professionals, the decision to live with a partner before marriage, leaving an abusive marriage and being cast out by her church, choosing not to follow in parents' footsteps as a Christian missionary caring for the poor, choosing celibacy, being called to work with refugees, tattoos, freedom without makeup, recovery, dealing with dissatisfaction in one’s marriage, etc. Many of these are even greater taboo topics in conservative Christian circles. We all have our own taboos.
The following essays struck particular notes with me:
"The Gatherer-God: On Motherhood and Prayer," by Micha
Boyett…who struggled to find time to pray with young children. She has found that her most contemplative time is when her mind is fuzzy and she
has no book before her…when she was breastfeeding, for example. She takes her cue
from Christ’s own mother, who twice is described as “pondering” at the work of
God in her son. “Why else would such a prayer be mentioned in the Gospels
unless to call us to such deep work?”
"Naughty by Nature, Hopeful by Grace," by Enuma Okoro, who confesses that she develops a crush on a close male friend, but through talking
to her friends and wrestling with the issue, she comes to peace with it and
finds a way to move on without disrupting their friendship (or his marriage).
“I am beginning to realize how little the churches of which I have been a part
have taught me about the beauty of boundaries and the reality of fine lines.” I admired Okoro's honesty on such a difficult topic.
"Married by Children," by Erin Lane. The author grapples with the
decision not to have children, and how unusual that is in the church. We tend to be heavily focused on family and children in our churches.
"High Stakes Whack-a-Mole: Noticing and Naming Sexism in
the Church," by Lara Blackwood Pickrel. Pickrel writes about being treated as “less than” as a woman,
having comments directed about her appearance because she’s a woman, and being told
she’s too sensitive when she notices sexism. That last one is a particularly strong pet peeve of mine!
"Crafting Bonds of Blood," by Patience Perry. The author writes about reclaiming the
menstrual and labor rituals and our sensuality. Perry writes, "Imagine if ALL women were
validated for their potential to create life as evident in their monthly
cycle…I am seeking ways that we can strengthen and reinvigorate women through
the common bonds of blood…I’d like to see our society embrace women’s rituals
and reconcile our disconnection with creation.” Have you ever heard menstruation or women's reproductive organs mentioned in church?
"The God of Shit Times," by Rachel Marie Stone. This was definitely my favorite title. Stone reclaims the power of profanity after being raised in a family where
Christian "ladies" don't swear. When Stone's friend was in cancer
treatment, she acknowledged that profanity had a purpose: “In the midst of my
frigid and tedious winter, I needed some good profanity to adequately describe
how much it all sucked. Sometimes an f-bomb is the exact, right word.” After seeing several close friends through deep, dark times and experiencing them myself, I can relate. Our God is a God of shit times.
"Naming God for Ourselves Amidst Pain and Patriarchy," by
Rahiel Tesfamarian. The author changed her imagery of God through her divinity studies. Tesfamarian writes, "The
image of my Maker as a ‘soft, still voice’ or ‘gentle whisper’ found in 1 Kings
19 was comforting and reassuring…I have done the hard work of unpacking God for
myself. But that responsibility should not fall solely on me as an individual.
The church also has a lot of work to do. Will more churches rise to this
occasion, commit to being cutting-edge on matters of gender equality, and go
where women of faith dare to take them? IS the church ready for a generation of
women who are determined to define God on their own terms?” I went through a similar journey myself when I studied feminist theology in college and discovered that God was so much bigger than one gender alone.
“The Silence Behind the Din: Domestic Violence and
Homosexuality," by Rev. Sarah C. Jobe. As a chaplain who works with victims of sexual abuse, Jobe reflects that the church does not address sexual assault or domestic
violence, even though 30 percent of women are victims. Instead the church
condemns homosexuality while ignoring sexual assault and domestic violence. She raises the story of Sodom and Gomorrah and the fact that instead of addressing the issue of rape in the
story, this story is used as a weapon against homosexuality. “Will we continue to read the
Scriptures according to our taboos around homosexuality and domestic violence,
accepting interpretations that maximize violence?”
"No Women Need Apply," by Gina Messina-Dysert. This essay is about the war on women
being waged by the Catholic church. Messina-Dysert finds a way to identify as Catholic by
realizing she is her own agent and will not allow anyone to tell her what her
religious status is based on her refusal to accept discrimination. She is also raising a
daughter who will fight for women’s ordination in the Catholic church. This essay is important to me because I am married to a Catholic and belong to a Lutheran-Catholic community.
"The Pastor Has Breasts," by Rebecca Clark. Clark writes about pregnancy, body
awareness, sexuality, and breastfeeding in a highly public environment that is church. This essay made me think about what the unique journey female pastors must take and how the standards can be very different for them. When I was breastfeeding my children, I did so in church during worship. I'm grateful no one ever questioned this. As a pastor, I no doubt would have been under a microscope and judged for doing this.
"Created for Pleasure," by Kate Ott. Ott became aware of
masturbation as a blessing from God. She notes her "aha moment" of learning in a seminary sexual ethics class that the clitoris is the only body part
created solely through pleasure. She asks, ”What would the world look like if every girl and woman knew exactly how
her body worked? If it was respected and her enjoyment of sexual behaviors was
as important as that of her partner…that would be the world God intended…God
created us to experience pleasure for the sake of knowing and loving ourselves
better, so that we can know and love others better, including God.” What a wonderful way to look at our bodies and sexuality...and a wake-up call for the church.
"Flesh and Blood," by Ashley-Anne Masters. As a chaplain caring
for women who have experienced pregnancy loss, Masters writes about pregnancy loss not being openly addressed in
the church. She also writes about her own loss conducting a baptism right after experiencing her own
miscarriage and how she shared her own grief with strangers. I received some support from church friends when I experienced several miscarriages, but it wasn't something I felt comfortable talking about.
"What Do Cinderella, Lilies, and the Cross Have in Common," by Carol Howard Merritt. Merritt had to ask for a salary raise at
her first church and experienced condescension from church members about her husband being the stay-at-home
dad. Money, especially needing to ask for it, is a huge taboo topic for pastors...especially female ones.
"My Secret Buddhist Life," by Mary Allison Cates. After Cates was told
she didn't look like a minister, she rediscovered her body through yoga and nose
piercing. She also wrote about how she is feeling more comfortable with her female pastor body now that she is older and her body attracts less attention.
I liked the wide variety of perspectives in this collection, and this book made me long to sit around a dinner table with all these women and get to hear their stories personally.
